Vanessa Carlton
Monday, July 28, 2008
Friday, July 18, 2008
Just Chillin' - Old City
We were hanging at the park near penns landing.. Waiting for Brian to come see us.. He was a annoying that night on the phone.. couldnt really get directions well couldnt make up his mind if he's going to come or not..
Smile..Just drinking....
Oh DAN!!! Explaining once again the directions to Brian..
See Csaw in that same place in the old city that night!!!!
Chloe is going to France for work and head straight to Nicaragua for vacation.. Wont be seeing her for a while so this was the night before she left..
Smile..Just drinking....
Oh DAN!!! Explaining once again the directions to Brian..
See Csaw in that same place in the old city that night!!!!
Thursday, July 17, 2008
Thursday, July 10, 2008
His name is Brian
Its been more than a year since I started dating... Im 23 yrs old when i started- It may sound fucked up to some people not having one relationship yet, not to mention not having the pleasure at this age.. I always felt I am way too slow for this and too dumb for all this shit- I dont know anything about anything. After all those tries and guys I went out with, none made me felt the urge to be with, except for one....or two...
I stopped after a while looking for "that guy" and found something else. I found friends. A friend at first but two became three- Chloe and I and then Steffi! The times went so fast but it was allllllll GOOD! ThE TIME SPENT WITH THESE FRIENDS OF MINE WAS ALL WORTH THE pukes, the meal-less weekends, sleepless nights, worse, the sleepless weekends. Now they started to go their own way. I was into this world with them and Im starting to think I have to go my own way as well. When I realized this, the stillness of life I felt while living this world was shattered. I cant really deal with changes that well.. I thought I am better than anyone else, but Im wrong. Im scared to go my own way. But I have to deal with it, like everyone else.
I wanted to try to go my own way while I still have an outlet left with me, so I did. I started dating again.
I went out with this guy from the city, which is 20 mins away from where Im at. It was fine on our first day, the succeeding days, didnt feel good anymore.. I asked myself "do I really like this guy?" I cant even tell. I tried to make it work but it just doesn't feel good being with him. It didn't happen just with him.. It happened all the time. I thought I like the guy but would realize soon I really dont.
The guy I mentioned earlier, his name is BRIAN. I met him last year. He was the only guy I wanted to waste my time trying-to-meet with. But we couldn't beat the odds.. There was no way we could meet again. I stopped after a while of trying but I waited for time. I was trying to get a hold of him and it was last week when we heard from each other again. And since then, I have been longing to be with him again. With my friends leaving, I realized I just needed someone I really like and I really feel good hanging out with. Im not sure If he feels the same way as I do to him, but I will take the risk finding the answer to this. Even if It means throwing myself to the pain every girls' trying to run away from, I will go through it and find it out myself. I wanted to know how it would work with a guy I long to be with for me. If It still doesn't work, Im done looking.. I'll wait..
My beloved boar friends!!!
I stopped after a while looking for "that guy" and found something else. I found friends. A friend at first but two became three- Chloe and I and then Steffi! The times went so fast but it was allllllll GOOD! ThE TIME SPENT WITH THESE FRIENDS OF MINE WAS ALL WORTH THE pukes, the meal-less weekends, sleepless nights, worse, the sleepless weekends. Now they started to go their own way. I was into this world with them and Im starting to think I have to go my own way as well. When I realized this, the stillness of life I felt while living this world was shattered. I cant really deal with changes that well.. I thought I am better than anyone else, but Im wrong. Im scared to go my own way. But I have to deal with it, like everyone else.
I wanted to try to go my own way while I still have an outlet left with me, so I did. I started dating again.
I went out with this guy from the city, which is 20 mins away from where Im at. It was fine on our first day, the succeeding days, didnt feel good anymore.. I asked myself "do I really like this guy?" I cant even tell. I tried to make it work but it just doesn't feel good being with him. It didn't happen just with him.. It happened all the time. I thought I like the guy but would realize soon I really dont.
The guy I mentioned earlier, his name is BRIAN. I met him last year. He was the only guy I wanted to waste my time trying-to-meet with. But we couldn't beat the odds.. There was no way we could meet again. I stopped after a while of trying but I waited for time. I was trying to get a hold of him and it was last week when we heard from each other again. And since then, I have been longing to be with him again. With my friends leaving, I realized I just needed someone I really like and I really feel good hanging out with. Im not sure If he feels the same way as I do to him, but I will take the risk finding the answer to this. Even if It means throwing myself to the pain every girls' trying to run away from, I will go through it and find it out myself. I wanted to know how it would work with a guy I long to be with for me. If It still doesn't work, Im done looking.. I'll wait..
My beloved boar friends!!!
This is Brian and his dog Bruno
WHEEEEEW!!!!! HE IS HOT!!!!! WHEEWW!!!
Monday, July 7, 2008
See you soon Steffi Boar!!
This is it!! Steffi from Germany is on her way back home.
Things have started to change among the three of us. The closer the time separates us the deeper friendship grows.. Steffi was always the control freak..Hehe!! while Chloe and I are the freaks out of control.. Well, not always..sometimes not.... yah knowww!!! Steffi always stop us from doing something crazy even if she doesnt literally stop us.. She has become a part of us that holds our inner senses if we lose track of our awareness-kind'f-senses.. Right Chloe?
Steffi, u are such a quiet Boar!!! But we know you already (anymore, yet, again), so we always say to people "she only talks to the boars" & "she's talks when she's drunk, and she's funny when she talks drunk"
"The last time I'd get to see you and embrace you is at the train last night. It wasn't the best place in the world to say farewell, but Im going to remember it forever. And Im really positive i will see you again..soon.... AMSTERDAM if not in LONDON.... LONDON is too soon.. Im really jealous Chloe and you live close to each other compared to me. But im not gonna let my upset mind stop me from thinking of seeing you again soon.. I will make it happen!!"
Here are the last exciting moments we had with Steffi here in the US:
Things have started to change among the three of us. The closer the time separates us the deeper friendship grows.. Steffi was always the control freak..Hehe!! while Chloe and I are the freaks out of control.. Well, not always..sometimes not.... yah knowww!!! Steffi always stop us from doing something crazy even if she doesnt literally stop us.. She has become a part of us that holds our inner senses if we lose track of our awareness-kind'f-senses.. Right Chloe?
Steffi, u are such a quiet Boar!!! But we know you already (anymore, yet, again), so we always say to people "she only talks to the boars" & "she's talks when she's drunk, and she's funny when she talks drunk"
"The last time I'd get to see you and embrace you is at the train last night. It wasn't the best place in the world to say farewell, but Im going to remember it forever. And Im really positive i will see you again..soon.... AMSTERDAM if not in LONDON.... LONDON is too soon.. Im really jealous Chloe and you live close to each other compared to me. But im not gonna let my upset mind stop me from thinking of seeing you again soon.. I will make it happen!!"
Here are the last exciting moments we had with Steffi here in the US:
The FUGLY and The FUGLY:
Foxi MOVE!!!
Our present to steffi!! Its awesome!!!
Steffi boar move
Just before the puke duet!!! HEhehe!
You are fucking weird Steffi but what the hell, WE LOVE YOU!!!! The BOAR WORLD is not the same w/out you!
See you again soon Steffi Boar!!!
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