Try

Its funny when i trace back time. The being I was before is still here. Nothing has changed. Things around me may have changed, Im still what I am inside. I may have done things that not in a million years i would even think of doing before, it doesn't change who I am. .

I remember when i was still a kid. I always see my dad smoke. I stole one stick of cigarette and stay at the back of our house and lit it up. I wanted to know how it feels. And the only way to know is to try.. And looking into my life now, I have done a lot of things because I wanted to try and see how it feels. I wanted to learn it myself and see it through. The feeling of wanting to try the cigarette is the same exact feeling i have right now into trying new things. And what pushes me to do it is to kill curiosity and put in the knowledge that comes with it. And once i get the knowledge I am in control of the urge.


I am fortunate I had the gift to see things from the top. I have learned to ramify myself. I could detach myself from life's predicament and find how things are going to work out whatever choices I got in my hands. Its not easy as it sounds. And it has never been easy to make decisions, especially when you have outside factors that you would have to consider. Well, what in life doesn't have a "BUT"? Whatever choices we make, there is always a "BUT". We just gotta learn how to deal with the imperfections of life. Be aware of yourself - of what you CAN and NOT do, and of what makes u happy (coz what matters to you matters)- and be honest to urself and you'll learn to sort things out. There is always a way.

This point of my life, i have made huge decisions out of the things that matters to me, and what makes me happy.. There's always this thing in me that questions if I have made the right choices in life. And the decisions I made now, reminded me of my childhood. I wanted to experience and feel how its like to live a life on my own. I wanted to try it out and see it through. It all fits in back then. That's how I know I am making the right decisions for myself.

It was in me before, still in me now, and always will be...