I dont give a fuck of this damn world!

Im stuck in this life of negativity! Jealousy, self-pity- because I cant go where i wanted to go, can't fucking buy what i want to buy anymore because money these days is so hard! I just got paid last friday  and its a fucking $1260 and now im all broke again! I still have to buy fucking gifts for James and his family!

I cant even go where I want because i dont have a fucking car! And the buses takes fucking forever to take me somewhere!

I am mad! I am sooooo mad! Im like a bomb that's about to explode! We made plans yesterday to go to mastermind for my gift to Jane. But what the fuck, we just fucking went to the fucking surplus to buy that fucking gift for Matt! We got home after that. Well, we got a few groceries and that's it! I am sooo pissed because i can never get things done when im with James! FUCKING NO! i wanted to buy gifts today, ofcourse i didnt because how will i buy gift for someone who is with me the whole fucking day! I cant do shit!

FUUUUUUUCKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!! fuck this life!

How do i fucking turn this thing around!

please somebody tell me because im sick and tired! Im fucking sick and fucking tired!

I AM NOT HAPPY WITH THIS LIFE ANYMORE! I am complaining about everything! I am complaining about complaining! I dont even look on the bright side anymore! I dont appreciate the good things that happen to me! I dont notice the good things around me! All i do is fucking complain!

FUCCCCCCKKKKKKK THIS!!! MOTHERFUCKING LIFE how can i turn u around!


I WANT TO BE BACK TO MY OLD SELF! THe happy me! I want to be optimistic about everything! I dont feel important anymore! I dont feel useful! I feel so useless. my life is useless!